He is jealous for me…
The first time I heard those words. I think I probably just sat there. In shock. The idea that someone would be jealous. Over me. Impossible. Not me.
He is jealous for me, loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions
Eclipsed by glory and I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me
Oh, how He loves, yeah, He loves us
Oh, how He loves us, oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves
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Is it possible? That he loves me? Even me?
One day, while singing this song, the spirit filled every pore of my being. YES! YES! Yes, it shouted. A great crescendo proclaiming the love that my Savior had for me. Yes, you. In your broken mess. He loves you.
That day. Changed my life. Because something deep inside came roaring back to life. Deep inside was a little girl who woke up. With a vengeance. She’s been kicking my butt ever since!
A simple song. Funny thing, the guy who sang it, I wouldn’t have in a BILLION years listened to him a decade ago. Because he didn’t “look” Godly. He certainly didn’t act it considering he was singing on a radio station. Isn’t it funny that YHWH used that to get through my thick, stubborn shell?
And you know what? He loves me. I LOVE saying that. Whenever I get down, or I feel unworthy, I remember. HE. LOVES. ME.
It’s a simple faith I’m walking right now. Not because I don’t want more or because I don’t believe. A simple faith, because that’s what I need right now. What the little girl needs. And I think that’s what Jesus meant when he said, “And He called a child to Himself and set him before them, and said, “Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Whoever then humbles himself as this child, he is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven.”
A child. A child who trusts. A child who believes. A child who loves. Unashamedly. Because that’s just what children do.
This simple faith gives me a chance to experience YHWH through the eyes of a child. Erasing all the nightmares, the burdens and shame that I was taught as a child.
He loves me. I believe it now.