My heart hurts. I watch as it slowly heads toward the end. I try to grasp that I can stop the end. I can make it go a different direction. Yet, I’m paralyzed. Helpless. Don’t know if I even have the strength left to fight yet another battle.
Where did things go sideways?
When did it change?
Was I just not paying attention…or did I pay attention and just let go?
I need to do something. I have decisions to make…things to do…
I’m sitting here paralyzed.
Watching the end approach and doing nothing.
Lord save me from myself.