Surgery is a scary thing. You face the unknown. You face fears that you never knew existed.`It requires a certain amount of trust and faith in a person. When you allow yourself to go to sleep, you have to believe that you will wake up on the other side.
Facing the past and the pain is like surgery. You know that once you are through it that you will feel better. That the cancer inside of you will be removed so that your body can heal. You know in your head what is good for you…it’s your heart you have to convince.
I sing this song today over and over…
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through
So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide
I am quoting scripture to myself:
I walk through the valley of the shadow of death this week. I know the Lord is with me. With all of us.